i am a celebrity

    Most people have had some sort of celebrity moment.  Meeting someone who almost everyone knows, coming face to face with a wrestling icon, meeting hall of fame football player, or shaking hands with a rock legend meeting the governor of California before he was recalled.  Then there are those people who are famous in your world.  Like Steve Jobs if you’re an apple geek, or meeting Chuck Liddell or GSP if you are Blake Dieringer.

    The celebrities in my world (as many of you know) are Philip Bloom, Joe Simon and Scott Andrew all of who are in the Film and Photography business.  I watch everything they do, I follow them on Twitter and on Facebook.  I read their blogs and try to emulate everything that they do.  You could say I am obsessed.  I was so excited when I saw my picture with Philip Bloom on his blog or when Joe Simon listed me as one of his Follow Friday suggestions (it’s a Twitter thing).  Some people are constantly trying to associate themselves with celebrities or people who have achieved the success that they crave, and I must admit I am guilty of this sometimes.

    The next step in the whole celebrity thing is the desire to be one of the celebrities.  To reach a level of success where people treat you like a celebrity and want to be around you.  For me it would be to create video masterpieces that gain the recognition of some of my idols.  To be known for something I have done, To just be known.  Well it seems like I am always working toward that goal, to gain that success, to be a celebrity in someones eyes.

    I was mowing the grass today (not a celebrity thing to do) with my mind working overtime.  Thinking of all my upcoming projects and how to maximize all my assets to further my business and upgrading camera blah blah blah.  When I noticed my daughter, Micah, sitting in the lawn chair watching me and finally jumped up begging to help me.  I love Micah, and I have a blast playing with her.  Jada complains sometimes that we do get a little too crazy or wild.  But more often than not I am busy with some project, like editing pictures and putting together a film project or engrossed in some tv show.  My wife gets on to me because she says it takes her and Micah several tries to get my attention.  Watching Micah sit there watching me brought a revelation to me that I hope I never lose.  I am a celebrity to Micah.  She watches every move that I make.  She emulates what I do.  If I say I like something, she usually likes it as well.  There is no man who will have more influence on her life than me.  I am the one that is daily shaping her into the person she is, and will become.  The past 4 years have gone by so fast and I will never get those opportunities back to spend the time with her or to influence her, I only have today.  Today I promise to answer you the first time that you call my name.  Even if it is just to show me your newest funny face.  I promise to not let work or a project keep me from spending time with you.  I want to tell you I love you with more than just words, but with my actions.  I want you to grow up and look at me with love and admiration because I showed you that you were one of the best parts of my life.  I want to be your celebrity for life.  I love you Micah.

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    LauraMarch 17, 2010 - 12:30 am

    Ryan, this is beautiful. When she’s a little older, she will love to read this post too. It is so easy to lose sight of what’s most important in the whirlwind of creating new projects, forging ahead in the world we’re in… thanks for the reminder of what’s most important.

    karenMarch 17, 2010 - 12:50 am

    beautiful..thanks for your insight. Loved this post, you just spoke/wrote words into my life to help me to try and become a better mommy for my children.

    shawnaMarch 17, 2010 - 1:41 am

    I remember when the boys were a little younger I came to a similar realization, and when I put them first my life became more fulfilling. You are right, you never get those days back. I pray this attitude continues for you each day, and the Lord blesses your father-daughter moments. 🙂 this was beautiful Ryan.

    ryanblackfilmsMarch 17, 2010 - 1:41 am

    Thanks Laura!

    ryanblackfilmsMarch 17, 2010 - 1:42 am

    You are a great mom! Keep it up.

    ryanblackfilmsMarch 17, 2010 - 2:01 am

    Sometimes it is hard to keep her as a priority when I get so busy, so I am going to need reminders often.

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